Disappointed

i think its already written that i will die with only my family around. or is it too early to find a TRUE friend? -sigh-

my so called "best-friend" crisis started back in..sekolah rendah. when H*w* was bad-mouthing me. She hung out with me just because im smart. Then she flirted with my then boyfriend, *d*m. And then she went to sekolah asrama agama and bajet alim pulak. (see why i anti THESE kind of people?)

and then there was F*t**. Although we WERE quite close sejak masuk TGB, she IS a two-faced hypocrite bitch who, deep down inside IS envious towards me in ALL aspects. She pretended to be my friend while the truth was, she hoped for the WORST for me and got really happy when i stumbled. She tried to live it up to me but, you are not fabulous enough baby. The truth IS, im BETTER than her in every single way(ok fine. except for sports. she can have that. at least i didnt get sunburned and menggelapkan kulit yang sudah pon gelap).

now. today. terasa la skit. xdela sikit sangat. banyak sikit. sikit banyak. this GOOD friend of mine. she was reluctant to go out with me. i mean like, on a special girls day out. seboleh-boleh die nak ajak orang lain(even those yang x rapat ngan kami). it was as if she does not want to hang out with me only.but then she was enjoying herself with her other friend(ok, fine. her Best Friend). but still. Die dulu semangat la sangat nak ajak aku kuar. So, pe cite sekarang?

konklusinye, these are the type of friends whom i would forget. i wont invite them to my wedding. (cewah berfikiran jauh).